My habit tracker betrayed me after five months

I've been bullet journaling for about two years now and my habit tracker has always been my favorite spread. Last month I realized I had been marking a habit as done for 22 days in a row, but I actually only did it like 3 times. The tracker looks great on paper with all those little checkboxes filled in, but it means nothing because I was just filling them in out of guilt. I started doing it to look productive and completely stopped being honest with myself. So last weekend I ripped that whole spread out and started a simple one with just three habits. No colors, no washi tape, just a line and a checkmark or an X. Has anyone else caught themselves lying to their own bullet journal?

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faith_shah8814d ago

Five months? That's rough, but honestly I gotta wonder if you're overthinking this a bit. I've kept a tracker on and off for years and sometimes I miss a day and just fill it in from memory, which isn't great but it happens. @emery66 has a point about the washi tape and all that stuff looking nice while you're fooling yourself, but what's the real harm? You caught it, you fixed it, you moved on. Seems like you're making this into a bigger deal than it needs to be when it's just a notebook with some checkmarks in it. People act like bullet journals have to be some deep moral test of character, but at the end of the day it's just a tool that sometimes breaks.

patricia26214d ago

Oh come on, it's not that deep. Yeah, you messed up a tracker for five months, but who actually cares? Like, what kind of "real harm" are you imagining here? Your habit tracker is a tool, not a character witness. You're acting like you kicked a puppy or something.

emeryj6614d ago

Isn't that just bullet journaling with extra steps and disappointment? At least your pages looked nice while you were gaslighting yourself.